i seriously can't believe i cried. i loved you so much yet it seem like its fate that we will never be together. it seriously hurts. i gotta say i love you. but please don't feel guilty. its not your fault and i will never blame you for doing this it is what you should do actually. please smile and take it as that is what you should do. i might pick up smoking again but i gotta say i dw you to know that. nao i realised we're impossible i can be at ease to harm myself without anyone else knowing. thanks for those caring friends that are part of my life too. they are awesome